Hey all in the world out there--so my blogging is behind...but I have something to get off my chest--and so here it goes on here....once again where a journal may be a good investment...
So--I have been pondering for the past week about my job. I don't like it. I will be honest--I am not excited about it at all. I love teaching--don't get me wrong and I think what I'm doing is worthwhile. I just feel like my job right now is tough. Granted--I'm grateful to have a job in this time of economic stress...but the way it is working right now literally scares me.
I am afraid I will lose my sanity this year. And that is all I have to say on that...
This school year, I have a pay freeze on my salary. That means all my hard work on a masters means nothing. My insurance benefits will likely go up as well. So--I'm in more debt than I realized because the thought originally was to pay off student loans as fast as I can with the extra money I should be making. So much for that idea. It doesn't pay in my Utah district to get a Masters. Good thing I didn't do it for the money.
Secondly--I will be starting off the year with 26 first grade students. I love first graders, don't get me wrong. But 26 is horrible. And after hearing about some of the health things involved with some of my students, I don't understand how the state of Utah thinks it is good for teachers to have 26 six- year-olds in a room and have one young woman supervise them and teach them. It is INSANE! I barely survived my class of 21 last year.
Thirdly--I am team leader--I don't know if I am cut out to be a leader...I'm a little worried about the added responsibility.
That is that. I got it out of me. And my goal is to not speak of this concern on here again...
I wish Utah took better care of their teachers. They are about to lose another great teacher I'm afraid...I am really ready to check my options...