Ribs and Ice Cream?

I'm blogging tonight because I have got to get some thoughts out. For those who follow--Matt and I decided not to date anymore this past week. And I've been okay with it. He's a good friend and I'll probably always look to him as such. But--after the many times I've been "dumped" this year--I couldn't help but think of this clip:

I know it is silly to think these things--but how true is it? I mean--a guy can tell you how great you are as he is telling you he just doesn't see it going any farther--and that you are going to make a great wife to someone someday. But really?

Anyway--I am grateful for the chance I had to date Matt. I learned a bit from him--about what I want and what I need in a relationship. He was also very motivating for me as to my career and job. I think he reminded me of why I do what I do.

But--in a nutshell--change is always good to. I think I need time to refocus on me again--I find with each break up I have--I go through this whole "who am I?" phase. But--this time--I feel like I know me. But--I still feel like I need to work on me.

I have recently decided to work on my doctorate. This is going to be a challenge for me--I need to figure out financing and if I can even get into the program. I figure I'll take it one step at a time. But--I know that it is something I need to do--I can't just sit and wait for life to happen to me. This is the motto of my life--a lesson I learned from Elder Bednar in college.

So--for now--we'll cross our fingers that I can figure it all out.

Also--other good news--maybe. I have been invited to be on the Utah National Board Coalition Board. Whether or not this is a good thing--I don't know. But I'm excited for an opportunity to do something more to try to help teachers in Utah.

So--here's to change! Hopefully I can survive it all!