Thoughts of 30

Today is my last day in my 20's. I'm not going to lie. 29 was a very very hard year. I went through a lot of things that hurt and probably made me stronger. It's a year I think I am so thankful to move off of. But--it's probably a year I should be grateful for as well.

I think I learned that I can do anything I want to this year. I had many adventures and did many new things that I know my parents even question. I've heard my dad say many times that I must not be his daughter. I've met some amazing people too. I also have had opportunities to grow and become so much more.

But mostly--I've learned that I need to look for the joy in life. Amazingly--there are so many things that bring it. I think meeting new people, establishing new relationships in life with people, learning more about who I am, watching others find joy in their lives and families--these all bring joy. Sadly--I don't have more family than my parents and sisters--but I've had such opportunity to joy in their happenings and be proud of them for the things that they have done. I have some amazing sisters. And they are such examples to me of strength and obedience. I am lucky to have them. And my parents are absolutely amazing. They are my rocks. Through everything I have been through--my dad is there to listen to me--through tears and laughter--at evening or even 1 am. I am so grateful for amazing parents. Just like Nephi--I've been born of goodly parents.

Looking forward to the future though--I am seeing a lot of reasons to have hope. I have so much to offer the world. Never in my wildest dreams as a child would I have imagined myself where I am today. I always figured I'd get married, have a family, etc. But--I'm grateful I've had this chance to be where I am and go through what I have gone through. I never would have imagined that I could amount to so much. I know that I didn't do this alone--I had a lot of help and guidance from a loving Heavenly Father who has put things in my life that I know have put me where I am. I can't really say all of what I'm deciding right now--because I need to finalize it and figure it out more. But--I can say this much. I am better than I was before. And grateful.

SO--30 scares me some--it is a big number. But--the opportunities that lay ahead and the chances I have to grow are exciting. And I pray that the Lord and I see eye to eye on our timing and that I can make the most of me to best serve Him in the world. I don't know all what I'm going to amount to here--but I know this much. I have potential to be a goddess. And I have potential to do amazing things. I just have to keep believing and have faith.

So even though 30 frightens me a little, I think it is going to be a year of extreme growth. If you have been a follower--get prepared...because I think I've got some things in my future this year that will surprise many of us :)

Here's to 30. As from one of my favorite movies--

So--goals for the new year--be 30, flirty and thriving! Here's to 30!